Sunday Discussion

Our Home Teachers were just here. We talked about General Conference a bit and as we did so the conversation turned to missionaries and missionary work. The boys were asked where they wanted to go. Jonny responded with Australia and Jacob stated that he'd want to go to Japan. Those opinions didn't surprise me a bit - they actually sounded a little familiar.
It came time to end our visit with a prayer. Right before we did, Megan made a little 'ahem' sound (or something like it). We weren't sure what was going on. So, we asked and she stated that she wanted to go to Brazil. We then asked Rachel where she wanted to go. She couldn't really think of anything so our home teacher jokingly suggested Disneyland. She could talk to Mickey Mouse and all the Disney Princesses about the gospel. A couple of other thoughts were shared about how missionaries could set up a booth or talk with people while they were in line. Then Rachel came up with the idea that she wanted to go to Mapleton. I asked if she wanted to go on a mission somewhere in Utah and she responded with resolve that she would go to Mapleton. Hmm...we'll see. She obviously feels like it's a place where she likes to be.
I felt bad for a minute because I didn't think to ask the girls about it. We've talked about it before - but, I think in the moment we had just been talking about older kids or those who were about to go so I didn't think to ask the younger kids. I'm glad Megan spoke up! (Her mention of Brazil was not a surprise either - she's been saying that since the stake did a primary activity about missions and that's where she 'served' her mission that day. So grateful for all those who have a positive influence in our children's lives.)

It's the Glue

While having lunch we were listening to Ben Folds (edited by Layne) and enjoying the rain. The day is overcast and yet it's fun to see the colorful flowers and blossoms that are beginning to emerge in the yard. Jonny asked about Family Home Evening and decided to rotate the assignments and inform us of our assignments. (I love it when children think of a great idea themselves and then just do it. I also love that our kids look forward to FHE and that it's a regular part of our schedule.)
It's moments like this when I'm glad we homeschool...especially since we were actually productive this morning. I'm grateful we have the opportunity to spend time together as a family.
It's times like this when I have thoughts pop into my head about everyone homeschooling. I'm not saying it has to be for everyone. I'm just saying, I think every family would love a few moments of making memories in an everyday kind of way. It wasn't a big event - but, it was time with the family. It's the everyday stuff that memories are made of...the glue that holds the memories of the big events together.

Fast Forward A Couple of Years

I've been thinking about starting another blog with a couple of different topics so everything is all together. Yet, I'm not sure I want some of the details about the kids to be part of that. So, for now, I'll do a bit of updating here.
Obviously, much has happened since I last wrote. The two biggest things would be that we are in our second year of homeschooling and that Layne has Stage IV cancer. Both details have put a different twist on our lives.
We still live in the same place and are doing some of the same things. We still get to associate with some fabulous people around here and occasionally get to see a family member or two whenever they happen to be traveling through the area.

To Be or Not To Be

I just found this draft...originally written 5/27/12

This seems to be our phrase these days. It's been a challenge to not know if a loved one has cancer or not. We were told weeks ago that Layne has colon cancer and that he needed to have a procedure as soon as possible. That has since been corrected. 'They' don't know if he has cancer or not. There is a mass that has pre-cancer cells, but there's not enough evidence either way to know if there are cells that have developed to the cancer stage. We won't know until his surgery at the end of this week. We have gone for weeks now...thinking he has cancer and then not knowing if he does or not. The not knowing is hard. And yet, knowing doesn't seem like such a wonderful option either, unless we know it is not cancer.

The hard part about not knowing is not being sure of what to think or how to plan. For the most part, I try not to think about it; to keep busy with other things. Although, I haven't found a way to move quickly past the 'what if' thoughts that pop into my head occasionally. A couple of my first thoughts were about how I would miss him and how would I support our family and raise 4 kids by myself. I have also had times when I have noticed and appreciated the little things about Layne and having a companion that I love.

Layne is more anxious than usual. It's hard for him to not know and especially to deal with the unknown of how it will be to have part of him taken out and how his body will heal and function once that happens. He is one to worry. So, it's been a bit rough. He has done his best to joke about things occasionally.

Mom, don't you have a meeting this morning?

Jonny asked me this morning if I had a meeting. I typically do, so he was really just wondering why I was home. I get to be the YW President in our ward and have a morning meeting three of the four Sundays each month. (Besides, the usual 3 hour block.) I don't have any extra meetings on the 5th Sunday.

Layne's calling is Elders Quorum President, so he has two of the same meetings I do on Sunday mornings. Today, he had a meeting at 9, was home for a few minutes and left for another meeting that started at 11. He was home long enough for us to get out the door for the regular Sunday meetings we go to and now has three individuals/groups of people he's meeting with lined up. Megan was just asking about where Daddy was and why we weren't eating yet. I told her he had more meetings. She responded with, "Tell all those people to stop meeting with him!". It made me laugh. We're not used to Dad being gone all day on Sundays while we're home. It's odd for me because I'm used to having the meetings while Layne is home. I'm sure he's glad that there's not another 5th Sunday coming up in awhile! All of his meetings were administrative...he still get to do the ministering part.

The cool thing is...he's the one that got dinner taken care of...it's simmering in the crock pot right now. Yep...he's a keeper.