

Earlier today Megan mentioned something about wanting to get a lunch box. I asked her if she wanted to have one so she could have lunch at school. She seems excited about that. I'm not ready to have her be at school all day. I told her that if she were gone all day, I'd miss her. She gave me a compassionate hug and then the usual kiss on the cheek that follows. She told me she'd miss me too. (Then, I had a hard time finishing the story I was reading to her and Rachel - I was actually a bit weepy about the whole thing.) But, I don't think it's enough to change her mind. She keeps getting more grown up every day. I just want her to stay 4 for longer than her next birthday. I love this age and I don't feel like I've spent as much time with her as I'd like before she's gone all day and then it just goes downhill from there. At least with the boys - I felt like I'd spent time with them and knew them before they were gone all day. Megan and Rachel have spent part of the last few years in someone else's care (when I coop). We haven't done as many things together - outings, reading, playing... Time marches on - this time I feel like it's marching on without me. Better do something about that. (This is all with full day Kindergarten in mind. Maybe we'll just stick with the half day - although, I think she's ready for the full. Is it fair to decide solely on what the parent wants instead of what the child needs?:})